As a "bitter youth" I spent many hours writing poems that tried to capture the emotions I was feeling at the time. While I had a pessimistic outlook and some very bitter and cynical beliefs, I do feel that poetry was a powerful outlet and helped me capture the emotional changes I felt growing up. This is the portrait of my emotionfall so many years ago.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Education

to saint petersburg high school (a devil green)

The twisting tunnels are stained with
Memory; hidden are those thoughts –
Where a lost life and life lost meet,
And tell tales of their unknown futures.

Dreams are suspended, when, hands worn (young!)
Unlock secrets encased in steel . . .

3 – 7 – 13, the combination goes.

Tomes of knowledge, lo! What a
Strange hiding place for futures, when
The world can be chosen from a zippered bag.

Then the crowds swell, their faces bright
With (joy? sadness? loss? freedom?) as
Their lives intermingle, a common denominator
Found. (What is that shadow
With radio in hand? Why do I fear
The yellowed parchment so?)
Child, you are beckoned, and
Eyes widen: bewilderment. For here,
Small, insignificant, is a ledger.

What? – I see only letters.

Why, there are the yarns of Fate!

Mother measured, Teacher cut ...

The threads: they are mine.

"Son," they whisper, "Son,
"Spin thy thread."

And, when I looked over my shoulder:
The black gowns, the airborne caps,
The scrolls – all waved, all beckoned.
I have forgotten something ...
No, it was left behind.

I wondered how
The tolling of a bell could create
Destiny, when
(Pen in hand, mightier than a sword!)
Every minute I sat, daydreaming,
A chapter was unwritten.

Yes, they taught me life,
But I never learned how to live it.

© Copyright 2000 — 2010 Jeremy Likness. All Rights Reserved.

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